Working out four times a week, watching the protein in-take. At first I had a hard time seeing the changes. The numbers on the scale are going down, but I really couldn’t tell. People are saying I really see it in your face. One lady at work said my pants are ridiculously baggy. I started to pull out my before pics because I’m like where’s it all going and why can’t I see it. I’m starting to understand this whole your brain doesn’t catch up with your body. I know for sure, my eyes haven’t caught up with my small pouch. I started to think about what I’m wanting from the whole weight loss surgery? Trying to stay focused and trying not to be the “look at me, I’m smaller now girl!” I started thinking and seeing if I’m doing anything different? Dressing differently? Acting differently. The amount of weight I’ve lost it isn’t enough to be hoochie mama, but I’m sincerely hoping I don’t get there. One thing I know for sure I’m doing is watching how smaller, but thicker women dress and trying to hone in on some styles that are available to me now.
Alot of times when you’re 30/32 you’re very limited to what you wear. When you’re considered extended sizes, they really limit what you can get them big thunder thighs and breast in. I haven’t attempted to wear any smaller size shirts yet. Mainly because I need new under garments that will support these saggy girls up. I’ve squeezed into a size 20 Jean skirt. That was very exciting and delightful. I thought surely it would have taken me many more moons to get into that skirt, but I’ll take it. (small victories)
Recently I jogged for five minutes straights. I’ve never done that before. I’ve upped my work out from 30-45mins +. I’m actually enjoying working out. I’m focusing on weight training and praying that I can get these bat wings under control. I shaved my girly parts the other day and didn’t have much difficulties. It’s thos kinda things that people that don’t have a lot of body, can’t relate to but trust me. It’s a feat and a work out, just in case you’re wondering.
I’m sure someone’s saying tmi, so on that note, I’m out.
Have a great week!

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