They say that it takes your brain a while to catch up with your body. So you lose a lot of weight and you still feel like you need to shop in the plus size section. Or in my case, I still feel huge. I can’t believe that I’ve gone down a few sizes, yet I’m still in denial.
I feel great and people say I look great, but it’s still a big adjustment. My mom says that I’ve started dressing differently. And it made me think. Did I start dressing differently or did more things just become available to me, now that I’m not at the max of the plus size, size chart????
I guess a little bit, my swagger, if I have such a thing, has changed a little bit. I actually enjoy shopping now, where as before I’d hate hunting at Ross or Burlington Coat Factory, because the 3x maybe sometimes 4x would be minimal at best, but on top of the slim pickings, there’d be a whole bunch of other sizes that would catch the eye. Only to pick it up and discover it’s not even a “woman’s” size.
I swear if this Social and Human Services degree doesn’t pan out, I’m opening up a line of affordable plus size clothing, that young women can feel proud about! But that’s another post.
I still feel like I have to pile on the food on my plate. I still feel like even though my stomach is saying, “alright now!” my mind is saying, “feed me Seymore!” Even though I didn’t force feed myself at yesterday’s Resurrection dinner, I still feel like I had to finish my plate. What is that about? Over time, I nibbled on the food that I fixed and finally did decide to throw some away. But I ate a good majority of the food. While my stomach was saying whew…, my mind was saying, YYYYYEEEEEESSSSSS!!!!
I’ve got a lot more maturing to do when it comes to listening to the body and really deciding what is good for me and what is too much for me. I’ve adjusted to the things that are good to warm up, and good doggy bag food. I keep trying to eat bread only to discover that it feels me up to fast and sometimes doesn’t go down so well. I’m just waiting for the brain to catch up.
I’ll let you know if it ever does.
